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Hola. Well just for one second I would like to skip the youth group recap and everything else for that matter and just say what I wanna even if it was the last thing that happened in the night. Well last night after rehearsal Justin finally like asked me officially about his b.day gift: A HAWK NELSON CONCERT =O and thats the face I made for like 1 minute until I could breath. lol. Then I was like:O-M-G!! But then when I asked him when, he said Sunday. In my head I was like noo! I was like This Sunday? He was like yeah... I asked him again. And I think maybe even again. Until it finally freaking hit me. I'm singing this Sunday.... Wait what time?? He said it was about 12 but since its in Chicago we'd have to leave early. I was like nooooooooooo i can't go. I felt so sad. I still do. I couldn't sleep last night. I was trying to figure out a way that I could go. And I felt even worser because my boyfriend feels bad. I don't want him to feel bad. That was the kewlest gift anyone has ever even wanted to give me. And I think that is super sweet. He's the best guy in the whole world. He's so amazing. I love him and nothing is changing my mind! Okay. well I guess I should tell about the rest of the night. YOUTH GROUP=went okay. Caleb made me a pinch of madness. And this is why: why come and sit on the couch play with your STUPID scooter and distract people that are actually trying to get something out of this? huh? lol sorry but for real that's just lame. Aww man! I forgot to write down the scripture.. oh well. lol. It was a good Bible Study though. God really spoke to me through the 4th chapter of Jonah (whoa that just totally popped back to me lol) and in that passage it talks about how Jonah asked God to take his life because "death is better to me than life" and "the Lord said, 'Do you have a good reason to be angry?' ". And when I read that I kept thinking no. And that's how we are sometimes in life. We think we have every reason to be angry at God. Like he's working his hardest to make our lives stink or something. But he isn't I mean he's a loving God and he cares for us enough to give up his only son for us. And we think we have a reason to complain. But we don't. Like at all. Okay=] well that's it for the little message loll. Well before all that even Jaymie came over. We ended up watching Juno. LOL =] ha yeah it WAS supposed to be back like Sunday you point is? loll jk. Yeah we had a funny time. LOL. "She's all disappointed" ha=] but yeah. Well i'm going to go try to call my baby again cause I miss him and love him=] DEZZY