long time.

Hello. Okay well I guess today is the worst day to post a catch up post because I had one of THEE worst days of my life in history. life has gone on as normal. as normal as it gets with me. im still in love with justin and things are going strong but lately [you can thank my grandma for this] I feel like i'm slipping away. I just can't stand one more moment with my grandma. I'm telling you I'm not being melodramatic but she is slowly killing me. I sit around with some various Sarah Dessen book borrowed from a friend trying to lose myself in their problems and their lives, their town, Lakeview. Just to get away. Any place but here. I've read about a book a day for the past three days and I've been watching myself get further behind in geometry not caring as my teacher askes about various assignments just nodding then burrying my nose back in a book. And here's the thing about books and what they mean to me lately. They are my getaway. People in those books have problems. And there problems are so much easier. Than dealing with MY problems. MY sinking gpa, MY degading and verbally abusive grandma, MY life. It's just so much easier to deal with them. Like Annabelle it's time you open up. Halley, he's not what you think. Caitlin, please get yourself out of this relationship. Phew. It feels good to tell people stuff like that. Justin has been a life saver. Literally. That boy. Is my everything.