Rough Draft Dreaming: Fabulous Friday/YAH =]

Hey Everyone!
Well I just wanted to say farewell to Bob he will be making a few more appearances as our youth leader and then he won't be teaching us anymore...We'll miss you. Even the demon of the church a.k.a. Jared.
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BIBLE VERSE OF THE DAY:
Psalm 13
For the choir director: A psalm of David.
1 O Lord, how long will you forget me? Forever? How long will you look the other way? 2 How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart every day? How long will my enemy have the upper hand? 3 Turn and answer me, O Lord my God! Restore the sparkle to my eyes, or I will die. 4 Don’t let my enemies gloat, saying, “We have defeated him!” Don’t let them rejoice at my downfall. 5 But I trust in your unfailing love. I will rejoice because you have rescued me. 6 I will sing to the Lord because he is good to me.

Well Happy Freakin Fabulous Friday everyone. Tonight I will be going to some First Friday thing with the YAH group at my church. [YAH-Young @ Heart]. Yeah grandma's idea. It would be fun with friends but Jaymie is super busy this weekend. Tonight she is hanging out with Zack. Saturday she's doing a project @ 1:00. Then she wanted to hang w/Zack and me and Justin but I doubt we will be able to go. Then I think she maybe will sleepover but I'm never sure of plans anymore. What happens will happen. Then I have church and stuff. So yeah.

Okay if you guys haven't been aware. I am completely scared of change. And change is happening. And I'm adjusting really oddly. Alot is changing...
List of Changes in My Life Overall:

Jaymie has a boyfriend
Bob isn't youth leader
Noelle and Lauren aren't coming to CLS next year
It's summer and I'm pretty lonely and bored, I know so lame.
I failed and have to make up 2+half credits and I'm paying for it hugely
I'M SCARED.

well I guess #6 isn't a big surprise.

Change is the scariest thing ever. EVERYTHING. EVERYONE. changes. Seasons change. Time passes. People grow up or down. They move on. The forgive, forget or never let go. My biggest fear is change and being left alone. It's the scariest thing. Now that everyone is changing. I'm afraid everyone will just forget about me and leave me alone. Which is what has been happening kinda. Minus Justin of course though. Thanks hubby :D

I have a huge jealousy problem. Almost everyday. I get jealous in some way. I know I sound like a messed up person. I really do feel like it but hear me out. Everyday I realize more and more of the unfairness of life. Sometimes it really hurts too. The stuff life throws at you. Sometimes the truth hurts too much and like my grandpa's CD says i'd rather be told "sweet little lies". I don't really know anymore though. I can't do anything but just live though.