Getting It Back Together

Hello Again Readers.
Sorry if that was totally old-ish and that my posts have been really depressing lately. But tune in for a turn around. Because that's what my lifes doing again. A 180. Isn't it weird you don't say an 180? I mean it starts with an effing vowel...anyways...I've been doing a sort-of DIO therapy with Justin and if you were wondering why it's DIO not DIY. It's Do It Ourselves not Do It Yourself. Because there's no way I can do this myself. It's been hard but I have great friends and a great boyfriend and support from everyone so I feel a lot better. Justin has me reading and discussing this book "Why Does God Allow Suffering?". It's good for being on halfway through the second chapter but I fell asleep reading it last night And you'd be happy to know I miraculously didn't drool on the thing:) It's not that it was bad or anything I was just so effing sleepy. Anyways. Can you say ADD today? bahahahaha ;D The book is kind of helping me understand but get confused at the same time. Hence the need for a discussion with Justin Mr. Know-It-All:) Thank God for him. It makes me angry sometimes but then Justin puts it in a different light. And things make sense. So life is starting to go good again. I have started summer school back at CLS, my school. They have me doing History and my semester of English. And oddly I like it better than Horlick's summer school. All my work is on the computer so I can do things at my own pace. Today overall I finished 11 lessons and studied for 2 quizzes that I am taking tomorrow. I have a 98% in English and a 96% in History so things are great currently. And TOMORROW IS MY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY WITH JUSTIN!

Here's my tribute to our year together: Memories I have of us:

1. First Kiss (July 15, 2008)
2. The first time we went to Taco Bell and sat at our table for two
3. How we said we were gonna give that taco to some homeless guy
4. "Earlier I felt like everyone was around but now there are more people and I only see you and me" -Desiree (right before first kiss)
5. My birthday
6. How you tryed to bring me to an HN concert for my bday gift:)
7. How you gave me HN T-shirt for my birthday and i fell asleep every night hugging it
8. When you would kiss me on my bed all around my little stuffed animals and cover there eyes :)
9. Watching Monsters Inc.
10. Watching August Rush
11. Watching Marley and Me and Having you watch me cry ;)
12. Every trip to the mall
13. Our double dates with Jaymie and Zack
14. PIGGY BACK RIDES!!! :O
15. "1...2...3...jump!"-Justin *pushes him and he falls over then cracks up laughing*-Desiree
16. When we went to the K-Town Carnival
17. When we went to Grant park with my mom on July 31st :D
18. The very minute we started going out July 1, 2008 10:56 PM
19. The night of the 4th of July where you told me you wanted to kiss me under the fireworks.
20. Our first beach date together.
21. How Jaymie had to force us to hold hands :D
22. The day after my birthday ;)
23. My pink tank top and my favorite short :D
24. Playing Guitar Hero in my brothers room
25. Playing Rock Band in my basement
26. Every car ride home ;)
27. New Year's Eve (our half a year)
28. Reading Love Dare together
29. Prom!!
30. Winter Formal
31. Slow dancing in your arms
32. That Time I read that book over the phone to you and Jaymie and Jaymie farted all weird like "eeehhhaehhhaeeee" :D:D:D:D (jaymie hates me now ahahahaha)
33. Every morning that we have talked together
34. Every day that I've gotten to be ur girl
35. Even though I hated it missing you when you are in Michigan
36. When you watched my baby videos at my house and I had to cover your eyes with a Timmy :)
37. When you came to youth group and we held hands during the prayer
38. That time you said "I don't care if people believe in us I just care that you believe in us"
39. That night we watched Notebook together over the phone :P
40. First Friday downtown
41. Six Flags together
42. That time i cryed over the ant and you thought I was cute
43. Bik riding around my neighborhood
44. Going on the playground and by the school ;)
45. Getting a foot massage :D
46. Going on the Wizzer at night with you
47. Seeing The Gameplan with you such a long time ago and wishing it was in your gameplan to hold my hand ;)
48. That time you called me pookie head!!!!
49. The day you asked me to marry you
50. Looking into your eyes and knowing you love me
51. Valentines Day!!
52. Having you sing me your first song
53. And the second one
54. And the third one! :D

Okay I could list like many many MANY more BUT i don't have time so yeah. For our anniversary I made him another memory box. This ones a light green with darker green paper (that I saved from his christmas gift) accenting. I even put a little green bracelet that I made inside. He's making me a CD of our favorite love songs and the 3 songs he's wrote for me are going to be on there. I can't wait to see him tomorrow it'll be great! Then I might see him again for 4th of July fireworks and maybe the parade and I'm gonna make that little dream of a kiss under the fireworks come true:) Then we might go to the zoo with my mom Friday so yeah. I'll post pictures of everything ASAP.

LOVE YOU GUYS!

LOVE YOU JUSTIN THANKS FOR A GREAT YEAR OF LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME. EVEN WHEN THINGS HAVE BEEN TOUGH AND LIFE HAS GOT HARD YOU NEVER GAVE UP ON ME. WE'VE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH AND I CAN'T WAIT TILL THAT DAY I SEE YOU AT THE END OF THE ISLE WAITING TO CALL ME YOUR WIFE. LOVE YOU JUSTIN! muah your pookie head !!!!!!!:D