13/13/13???

Dear World,
Sometimes I wonder why I even blog when I'm addressing this to the world, but in reality I could count the number of people who read this on one hand. And I realize it's because I'm weird and I kind of like writing about my life. Say I'm conceited or self centered but it's interesting to see how I've changed. Like look at me I'm actually trying to spell things correctly. I used to despise spelling correctly in blog posts. Okay enough annoying analysis of pointless things.

Happy Late 2010. It's kind of weird. 2010. Even still while we're halfway through our first month. It's like futuristic sounding. Anyways, I've started my year off well. I hope everyone else has. It's my junior year in high school this year. And one of my hardest years, thanks to my slacking. Note to the handful that do read this: Slacking gets you nowhere, so hit it hard the first time or it will hit you hard when you have to do it again.

I'm getting very, very, VERY excited to be out of high school. Let's just say no one will be more happy than me on graduation day. I'm starting to try to plan my life. But it's so hard. I keep putting it off. But I know I need to at least start thinking. I feel like the only one in my junior class who doesn't know their major or some idea of what they want to do. My mom says I should be a nurse. Even though just the thought of needles makes me...Hey! I don't even feel grossed out! Okay well usually the thought of needles sticking into someone skin creeps me out but I guess I'm having a good day or something. I don't know if I could exactly deal with being a nurse but you never know, people change.

That's been the main thing on my mind lately. My huge to-do list. I'm kind of overwhelmed. Before I can even begin to live my own life I need to learn to drive. I need a car to learn to drive. And to have a car I need a job. Because when i get my own car I'll need to pay for the gas and insurance. I'm so desperate for a job I'd work anywhere. Seriously. As long as I get money. Not that I would spend any of this money. That's one thing that isn't different. I still don't spend my own money very easily. Anyways... 100% of my money would go straight into my nonexistent savings account. I'm already somewhat worried about my funeral payments. My unborn childrens college. The rent for the place I don't live in. Whew. I need a job. or two...

Lol. I know the handful that do read my blog have left by now. Sorry for this particularly boring post but It's a way to let out my thoughts.

Justin and I are thinking of postponing getting married for a little bit later. Not because we don't love eachother or anything. Just because of lack of money and stuff. And really there's no rush. I have my whole life to be married to him. It doesn't have to be 11-11-11. I mean it could be 12-12-12 or 13-13-13. Uhmmm wait? Lol. My bad totally forgot there isn't a 13th month. Lol :)

Anyways I better go now because I have a piano lesson.
Love you all!
Dezzy