By The Time You Read This I'll Be Dead.

Hey Everyone.
Well It's been awhile since I've posted two consecutive days. It's like an accomplished goal. Next on my list of goals is to not stress about stuff so much. I seriously stressed myself out so much last night I think I had a slight panic attack. I felt light headed and dizzy. I could like barely breathe and my heart was all racing. Yeah. Scary. Anyways, I just got done reading a book entitled By the Time You Read This I'll Be Dead. It was a really interesting book. The book is about a girl named Daelyn. She find this site on the internet meant for people that are committed to killing themselves. Daelyn has attempted to kill herself multiple times and each time failed. The last time she tried, she swallowed bleach and ended up disintegrating her throat so her vocal cords don't work and she's practically a mute. She pretty much just blogs about her life and reveals more and more instances where she has been bullied. It's really sad actually. It really showed how much words can affect people. It also taught me countless other things about bullying and suicide.

Now I'm on to the next book. It's entitled The Boyfriend List. It's one of those books that's annoying to have on you when people around. Like just today I can't even tell you the number of people who either a) looked at the cover and said "pfft the boyfriend list!" b) laughed at the cover c) look at me as if i'm odd. Maybe that's just my school. I don't know. Anyways, the book is really good so far. I'm maybe halfway. It's pretty much about how this girls life is in shambles and she's having panic attacks so she ends up seeing a counselor. I like the way it reads to. With little footnotes and crazy stories. That's another thing I hate, when you laugh out loud over something funny in a book and people look at you like you belong in a special class.

Another great book that I've been meaning to do a serious review on is White Oleander. The book is by Janet Fitch. I seriously am in LOVE with this book. It is just pure art and I've never read a book with such rich language. Okay I need to save this for the review but anyways. You should read it. It was an Oprah book awhile back so if you don't believe me, take it from the big O. Lol.

Random topic but I've been cooking lately. There's something nice about cooking. I like being in the kitchen. (I'd like it even more if some of my family knew how to clean up after themselves.) I haven't cooked too much. With school and all. But to this date I've cooked. Upside down pizza pie. Smoked cheddar macaroni. Lasagna. Quesadillas. And maybe something else. I'm pretty excited to make dinner for my future family. Let's just hope they aren't picky like Justin. Lol.

Well I better go now :] I have some literature homework I'm putting off.
Love,
Dezzy